I had 3 c-sections and have 3 beautiful children. I remember after my first one (which followed 24 hours of labor) my husband making the comment that in older days he would have lost both me and our son (which many did years ago). So I am thankful. I don't have a longing to have a 'natural' childbirth, but I would love to be at one... which may seem strange. It's good to deal with the feelings you have, tho. They are never right or wrong. They are just you and it is good to talk about them.