Horrible News about one of our own!

[godikS]

I don't really know how to say this, so I'll just come right out with it. Our dear friend, Aunt Bea, has been so depressed by this episode with the guy she went out with on valentines day, has tried to take her own life! A friend of mine that knows her personally, called me with this tragic news early this week. Seems like she was so depressed that she wouldn't even talk to her theapist, wouldn't talk to her friends, or her family. When her work couldn't get in touch with her, they became worried and went to her house. Only to find her lying on the floor, unconscience, and barely breathing! Thanks to some good friends and co-workers, who were concerned about her, actually saved her life! She is doing fine now, and told her friend to tell me to let ya'll know she's gonna be fine. She said that she realizes what she did was wrong, and not the way to face a serious problem. Said to tell everybody that she would be back with us soon! I'm sooo glad she's OK! This is some way to come back from a 2 week vacation, to find this out. take care!

[ricci]

Couldn't she have simply tried booze?

Seriously, glad bea is ok, I'm hurt that she left us hanging here watching and wondering what happened to her. It'll take some time to forgive her for that but I still want her to come back.

[angelthelson]

oh my!!! tell her to get well soon!!!

[DianneMK]

Please, Please, Please....tell our loveable Aunt Bea we all love her and miss her here.Please tell her i miss her posts and because of her wonderful posts she makes my day soooo much better.
(((((hugs)))) to Aunt Bea!!!

[MerdeCat]

Wow. I hope she's getting all the help she needs and will be better soon.

[Barbara]

I don't know her but pray that she will be fine.I do love to read her posts there so cool Please let her know we miss her here and we are here waiting for her to come back home to us here.

Get Well Aunt Bee

[Aunt Bea]

thanks for the kind words everyone. I had a hard time coming back in here. I signed on once a few days ago but couldnt post. see, this is very difficult for me. I am VERY embarrassed about what happened. I am certainly not proud of it, and I feel a large amount of guilt, shame, and sadness. I am seeing my therapist again. more often than I was before. she is really trying to get me on the right path. the good part is, she really cares, and has got my family involved in the healing process as well. I wish I could wipe away the past and erase what I did. I was so overwhelmed with guilt and sorrow after I got the STD from the valentines day date. I have spoke to Cameron about all this and he feels terrible. he knew he had the STD and didnt tell me. he was on a dry streak and wanted a quick piece of fun. I was stupid enough to fall into it. Cameron isnt a bad person at all, he just made a bad choice. he let his libido do the thinking. I dont mean to sound gross, but I really think men with very active sex drives need to work off some of that energy manually.

I am starting to get off the path now. I just feel very damaged now. Like I am worthless and completely undesireable. The STD issue is under control and its basically just an emotional issue now. Its not an easy process for sure. I am working hard on getting my life back together. I look forward to being a part of the fun here again. I dont know how often I will be here, but I will try to check in with all my purse lovin Gal pals.

thanks again for the kind words girls. I love you all.

[ricci]

glad to have you back bea, even though I'm angry you put us through this worry.

Tell that therapist to cut the melodrama and get to the root of the matter.

Instead of increasing the therapy, I think you should eliminate it.... It's possibly what's kept you in this bad place you're in!

Go out, buy a purse, get you some vitamins, and get right back on that horse bea! you KNOW you enjoyed it.

Suicide??????? That's crazy

[MerdeCat]

Bea, stay in therapy. I hope you feel better soon.

[DianneMK]

Aunt Bea please don't feel embarasssed around us.I know for a fact( and i am 100% certain) that no one here would make fun of what happened to you.My heart breaks for you for what that jerk DID to you.Knowing that he had something and carelessly passed it on.That man is a dog and he is NOT NICE.
Even though you and i have never met,please stop putting yourself down.I happen to think you are a nice lady.So ....take Ricci's advice and go out and buy yourself a new purse.You deserve it.Please come back and post.I miss your posts.
(((((hugs)))))

[Barbara]

I agree bee if he had been a nice person he would have told you in the frist place.That was so worng of him and he is a dog for putting you through all of this.Never be emberasssed here bee we are friends here.I have not met you or talked to you.But i know in my heart you are a wounderful caring lady.You do what you feel you need to do to get better.We are here waiting for you.Lots of hugs

P.S.

Go get you a new purse.It will make you feel better.

[MerdeCat]

Yes, he should go to jail for not coming clean about the STD. Bad man! Instant Karma's gonna get him.

[kitsch_k]

i really wish all the best for you dear

[Aunt Bea]

HI girls! I feel so good about all these nice things you all have said to me! you girls really know how to make a gal feel like she is appreciated. I know we have never met, but I feel like I would like all of you.

Now, a friend of mind told me about this place, and I joined not knowing what to expect. I know alot of you gals are way more into purses and fashion than I am. I try to be, but my lifestyle isnt really high fashion, but I try and do my best. I am still in therapy and thigns are progressing. as I said before, it is a long road. but the good news is, I am ON that road, and going forward.

I cant begin to thank you enough for the kind words here. You gals have certainly taken me under your wing so to speak, and I wont forget it. I feel so accepted here. Even though I am not able to buy lots of fancy things. I work hard and treat myself to what I can, when I can.


I will keep checking back as I am able too. My therapist thinks talking to you gals is a good thing for me. so I will be online when I can. I hope to be discharged from this facility soon and back at home. when that happens, I should be online more.

oh well, its lights out here at the ward, time to get to bed.

catch you gals later!

[DianneMK]

Aunt Bea its so nice to see you post.You sound like you are doing a lot better.
I am not into high fashion either as i am on a limited budget,and i don't buy a lot of new things for myself,but i try to look nice.I myself love handbags.I don't care where they are from,as look as i like it thats all that matters.But i do love Coach bags.I was lucky enough because my husband bought me one right after Christmas.Do i own a lot of so called "it" bags,nope.
Honey you are ONE of us.I am glad you are here and i miss your stories.Hurry up and post more often when you are able.
Take care friend!!

[jimmys devoted]

I think we all can agree we all make bad decisions at one time or another........and some of those have consequences... some bad like your STD or even worse a baby.........a reminder of that mistake in both cases.
Your therapist sounds like she wants to delve slowly and let you get used to each new discovery.. a wonderful method.

I will be looking foward to you coming back fully!!!!!!!!!!
julie

[anne022196]

seems like everybody loves aunt bea...and i agree with them...i really miss her too...and its been a long time since aunt bea did not visit us...well nice to see yah here...love yah *hug tight*

[Aunt Bea]

HI girls! I just had a chance to check in here. Thanks everyone for the kind words. I am still plugging along in therapy. Its going well and I hope to get out soon. They say I am making good progress here. I just try to stay positive and keep moving forward. it hasnt been easy for sure. its no cakewalk. iTs been an emotional ride to say the least. But overall its working. Its not bad here, they do let me use the nurses computer here occasionally for some contact with the outside world, although the do monitor what I do, which is understandable. The food here sure isnt great, but hte good part is, I have lost some weight! I dont eat as much in here, and part of my therapy is getting some regular excercise too, just for general health and well being. I get more excercise in here than I did at home, and I do like it. I have lost 15 lbs due to a better diet and regular excercise. So Bea is actually starting to look sexy again! I dont know when I will be able to get out and go home, but I hope its soon. I miss my family, friends and coworkers, although they can visit me. but its not the same as being home. I talked to Godiks the other day on the phone, and she is having a blast on her boat and is meeting new friends doing that.

SO Keep a good thougth for me girls!! I will be checking is as I am able to. And when I get out you will be seeing more of me here.

[Aunt Bea]

Hey gals! just wanted to check in! things are still going well! I am gettin in good shape! WOW! I havent felt this good in years. When I get out of here, I got to keep it up so I stay sexy. I will be getting out of here and going home SOON!!! I think in the next few weeks!!! that will be great! I cant wait to sit down with my family for a nice dinner and sleep in MY OWN bed!!! the beds here at the facility arent very comfortable. they are very lumpy and hard. the blankets arent very nice either. not like my girly sheets at home!

I will be checking in with you girls sooon!

[MarthaT]

glad to hear! looking forward to hearing the updates